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I don’t read fiction.
I’ve always considered it unproductive. I guess, in a way, I’m a commitmentphobe. A story must be finished to learn what “happens.” If I stop short, I waste time. What if I don’t like the read? If I read a non-fiction book I can walk away at any time and take with me the knowledge that’s been shared. There are no “sunk costs” with non-fiction. Fiction has sunk costs. (click to Tweet)
If I start something I finish it.
I don’t so much stop and smell roses along the way, though I won’t judge you for sniffin’ the perfume and may even advise you to do it. But me, I just plow right though. Finish it. Move on. NEXT!
I don’t sit and chill.
You guessed it. A colossal waste of time (for me). You can chill though, I know it’s good for some folks, but chillin’, for me, requires being still – and I can’t be still for too long. If my body isn’t moving, my mind likes to be doing the cartwheels.
If I do it right, I bleed.
Yes, that’s the litmus test. Catholic upbringing and work ethic have taught me that I have to go the extra mile. I have to leave a little blood on whatever I do – figuratively speaking, of course. It should hurt to be “good.” Hey, I know it’s a fallacy and don’t call it “perfectionism” because you know how I adore imperfection. I know it’s not true, but it’s in me…in the quick…so I partake in the regular bloodletting. Feels good. (click to Tweet)
Enter Raging Rhinitis
My husband shares everything, including his wicked common cold. Last week, that thug, “Rhinitis” rolled me and stole all my goods. (click to Tweet)
I. Got. Mugged.
I spent the historical equivalent of 3 days down for the count. Once I acquiesced, I decided in my typical fashion, to leverage the time I had left. I set up shop by the hearth and went to work relaxing (yeah, I realize the irony in that sentence). Here’s what I found most healing:
- A good book
- A gentle fire
- Tea
- Several lengthy, mouth-breathing naps – sequential or gently spaced – didn’t matter
- Not writing
- Not painting
- Not making the bed
- Not doing much of anything
- Snuggling with a cuddly blankie
- Chicken soup (made for me with loving care, thankfully)
- Hangin’ with my hounds
- Allowing myself to be taken care of by others
- Proper drugs
- Chocolate
On the 3rd day I probably could have risen, but hey, I’m not that Guy. Truly, I was able to leave my post, but didn’t make any serious attempts to rejoin the real world. I was finally “allowing” myself to unwind. Trusting if I took a break I could restart the engine. Being gentle with myself.
It. Felt. So. Good. ! Delicious.
Which brings me to the question. Why continue to allow such crazy beliefs to run my life? I see other ways working great for other people? What makes me so unspecial? Isn’t it enriching to explore the other side? Scientific evidence supports stopping to “smell the roses.”
I vow to schedule more breaks like this…only sans phlegm. Maybe one-a-day, like a vitamin. Or simply take them as life serves them. I’ll recognize and banish the para-abnormal overactivity that robs me of the “now.” (click to Tweet) Don’t get me wrong. I fill my days with work I love and with the people I find the most endearing, but I still subscribe to some strange beliefs, one being I don’t need to take care of myself the way I’d take care of someone else I love. I’ll bet you do, too. Care to take your inventory and vent your confession with me? You can jot a note below. You’ll probably feel better. I did. And then, we can smell the roses together.
Sniff, sniff (but the good kind),
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10 Comments
Jaime Haney said:
November 21, 2013 at 3:06 pm
Well at the first part of this post I was beginning to worry about you Michelle! Not allowing yourself to get immersed in a good non-fiction novel or poetry is like saying you don’t have time to enjoy art! I’m glad you are coming to your senses if at least partially… ha ha.
I do identify though with treating others better than I treat myself… but just occasionally. But if I’m honest with myself it’s probably more than occasionally. I am a mother after all and isn’t that what we tend to do? But to balance that out.. I am a “rose smeller” from way back.
I’m glad you’re feeling better now. A “big one” has yet to hit our house. There now I’ve done it and jinxed myself. Now go and get started on a really good novel before bed… it will do your artful soul good. 😉
Michelle said:
November 22, 2013 at 1:34 am
Thanks, Jaime. I LOVE poetry. Love, love, love it! I’ll take your advice. No big one for you, friend. Hugs ~ m
Barbara said:
November 21, 2013 at 3:56 pm
Oh dear! We are the same child from different (Catholic) families! I struggle with over-working even the fun stuff! Thanks for your well written post! Life is all about making adjustments along the way. Should get it right by the time in slide into “home base”!
Cheers!,
Barbara
Michelle said:
November 22, 2013 at 1:32 am
Haha, Sister! I’m glad we have one another!!! You make me smile!
Val said:
November 21, 2013 at 3:59 pm
Those 3days may have saved you 3weeks M! Glad you’re feeling better. I know where you can get a good book list! (And be sure to “self preserve” with a nice glass of red…)
Michelle said:
November 22, 2013 at 1:31 am
Ahhh, Val. You know just what I need! 🙂
Susie said:
November 22, 2013 at 3:56 am
You also seem to touch on something I am going through or have gone through before. I always get a new insight and look forward to your next post. Thanks again Michelle…glad you are feeling better. 😀
Michelle said:
November 22, 2013 at 9:42 pm
Thanks, Susie. I’m glad you find the posts helpful. Yep, feeling much better! Hugs!
Peter Daniels said:
November 22, 2013 at 4:21 pm
I meditate, or pray on my own, this is allowing other dimensions into my life. It is a great escape,and unproductive from the earth plane. I get to do,(not do) all kinds of things, which help develop my spiritual body. Cheers..Peter
Michelle said:
November 22, 2013 at 9:43 pm
Thanks for the insight, Peter. Yes, it’s so easy to get caught up in the worldly things we think matter and forget the things that really do matter. ~ Michelle